Do You Still Really Love Me?

I have been at the computer doing your work for almost close to 2 hours now. It has been very tedious and I am very very frustrated! During these 2 hours, I went into your friendster account. I know I shouldn't have done it. But after what you told me about Janice, I just couldn't help but do it. So I went in and clicked on messages. The only message from Janice which I found was the one which I saw the other time. I then clicked on 'deleted items'. Still no message from Janice. Instead I saw 2 from Clara (didn't she have a crush on you not too long ago?). Of course, being the curious me, I opened it. This is what I saw:

Clara wrote: Mr Jonathan!!! Hello! How you doing?

Jonathan wrote: hey babe! i m fine. i was wondering when u will b free so that can ask u out for a drink or somethin. haha. juz let me noe yeah!take care!

Clara wrote: What would be cool... Drink.. like coffee shopedrink or at a bar drink?

What the hell is that supposed to mean?! WHY call her babe?! WHY ask her out?! You DON'T even have time for me so why make time for her when she is not even your girlfriend?! She DID NOT have to put up with all your nonsense so WHY give her all that attention?! She DID NOT cook you your favourite foods! She DID NOT have to go through one year of NS with you! She DID NOT go all the way to Pasir Ris or Jurong or Khatib to pick you up from camp! She DID NOT wake up at ungodly hours just to wake you up! She DID NOT care about you when you were ill! She DID NOT help you when you needed help! She DID NOT surprise you with the things you always wanted! WHAT THE HELL DID SHE DO TO DESERVE THIS KIND OF ATTENTION?! You always complain to me saying that you're tired. But WHY is it that you are not tired when it comes to her?! MOST IMPORTANTLY, WHY ARE YOU SO SECRETIVE ABOUT IT?! Do you feel anything for her?! After these 2.5 years am i so detestable?! WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS?! Is Janice all a cover up? Didn't you say you hated Janice after what she did to you? WHY is it that you don't want me to meet your friends? You don't even bother introducing me to them! WHY?! As your girlfriend, don't I deserve to know every single bit about you?

Where is the transparency? Where is the integrity, OFFICER!!! Isn't that what they teach you in OCS?! So why aren't you practicing it? Why betray the trust I have in you?! Is she really worth it?! IS SHE?!

Tell me. Is my frustration (which is even more now FYI!) justified?! Am I being unreasonable?! It's not as if I don't allow you to go out with your friends! I let you do what ever you want. I want to tag along when you do go out with your friends so that i can meet and get to know the people you hang out with! I have always asked you along when I go out with mine but you always turn me down. So don't say that i never introduced my friends to you too. I want to but you don't want to make the effort to get to know them. I don't know how this relationship is going to thrive with you giving me this kind of nonsense. So for heaven's sake GET YOUR BLOODY ACT TOGETHER! IS THAT CLEAR?!

Commissioned lor!!!!

Today is the day!!! when my darling FINALLY gets commissioned as an officer... and believe me... it wasnt only him who went through the 38weeks only... I had to go through it too!!! with him... hahaz... but it was a journey which was worth making... hahaz... 9 months of shit... emotional turmoil... tears... but it was all worth it... we came out as much stronger individuals who have really grown both personally and as a couple... thinking back... well honestly speaking i dun think i'd wanna go through what i had to go through again... but nevertheless, i'm glad it did happen... n juz watching the parade today... hehez... it was a real proud moment for him, his family and me... it was the most ideal end to a long and ardous journey...

so here's to u baby... you're an officer now... people are gonna look up to you now... you've gotta learn to lead... to excel... and to overcome... you've gotta stand tall in adversities... i know you can do it... i believe in you... you just have to believe in yourself... you're not in a dream... this is real... you dream has come true! so live it up! I love you baby!!

personality tests... :)

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

Your Career Type: Enterprising

You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable. Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas. You would make an excellent: Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp Director City Manager - Judge - Lawyer Recreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales Person School Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.

What's Your Ideal Career?

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Your Brain is 53% Female, 47% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible

Fun, funky, and a little bit euro. You love your summers to be full of style and sun!

What's Your Summer Ride?

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

You Belong in London

You belong in London, but you belong in many cities... Hong Kong, San Francisco, Sidney. You fit in almost anywhere. And London is diverse and international enough to satisfy many of your tastes. From curry to Shakespeare, London (almost) has it all!

What European City Do You Belong In?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

You Are 18 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger. You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause. You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you! A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

How Machiavellian Are You?

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You Should Learn Swedish

Fantastisk! You're laid back about learning a language - and about life in general. Peaceful, beautiful Sweden is ideal for you... And you won't even have to speak perfect Swedish to get around!

What Language Should You Learn?

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Gosh... this thing is addictive!!! gotta go now... nitey nightz...