Sick...

It's been months since I last blogged... Well, I only come here when there's no where else to turn to... I'm on 2 days MC for some virus... But that's not the only illness plaguing me... I'm love sick too... I'm not scared to admit that... Darling's gone up to Malaysia with his friends... I can't accept that... 4 months killed me bad enough... I don't need one more seperation... He keeps saying it's for our own good... It's for us... But up to now, I still can't see that... I want an escape... I don't want to have to go through this anymore... I'm SICK AND TIRED of all this running away... Why can't we face anything together without having to find an escape? I want some pain much greater than my pain now to let me forget everything... The scars are there... They have not healed... I can't find the strength that comes out of weakness... I haven't seen those scars making me stronger...
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Scars (Stronger for Life)

by Corrine May

Just want to run

Just want to hide away

Close my eyes to your gaze

Just want to leave

Don’t want to hear them say

“You’re no good at this”

When the world swirls with naysayers

Broken wings and torn pages

The road ahead

Swimming in my tears

Break me open

Tear me down

Into pieces

Broken crumbs

On the ground

You can mould and shape me

In your image

Breathe your life

You know I need it

Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself

Gaining it back again

Forging strength from weakness

All that I am

All that I’m meant to be

Just melted in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers

Pickled hearts and sour faces

What is real is what I cannot see

Break me open

Tear me down

Into pieces

Broken crumbs

On the ground

You can mould and shape me

In your image

Breathe your life

You know I need it

Scars make us stronger for life

Cut away

All within me

That won’t bear fruit

Cut away

All within me

Break me open

Tear me down

Into pieces

Broken crumbs

On the ground

You can mould and shape me

In your image

Breathe your life

You know I need it

Scars make us stronger

Scars make us stronger for life