Day 19 of OBO... I miss you...
Today was rather boring... Didn't do much... Woke up at about 0900hrs... Went to wash up and all that... The usual morning routine... Well after washing up, I went downstairs to make myself Complan... 'Cause I wouldn't be having dinner 'cause I'd be going to music straight from work... So ya... Then while waiting for Colin, I read the newspapers... Nothing much in there... Sigh...
Anyway, went straight to work... Got in at about 1030hrs or so... So anyway, didn't do much in the morning except prepare an invoice an a letter and a bit of filing for the new stock that's coming in... Wrote checks out too... So ya... Nothing much really... After all that was done, I went surfing the net for info for our UK trip next march... I'm thinking of maybe staying for about 9days 8nights... Then hopefully we can catch the Chelsea home game... That would be really fun 'cause you would hardly get the chance to watch a premier league game at the stadium itself... See if the travel agents can work out a good and cheap free and easy package... Sigh... Must save even more!!!! Anyway after that, Colin can back with my lunch... Had to stay in 'cause we were expecting some dude to come in to drop off a cheque... So ya... Oh well... But anyway, after lunch (which was about 1530hrs or so) I didn't do much (so, quite obviously, I was thinking of you practically the whole day)... Just a bit of filing and double checking the records... So ya... So did that till about 1900hrs when we left the office...
Before going home, we dropped off some mooncakes at a client down the road... Then after that, Colin sent me to my music teacher's place... Didn't do much there either... Did a lot of theory... 'Cause my exam is coming... On the 3rd of November... So ya... Not prepared at all... Sigh... Oh well... Anyway, after that, my music teacher sent me home... Reached home at about 2230hrs... Then went to wash up... And just after I had placed my towel back on the rack, you called... So zhun...
Well, we spoke for about 15minutes... Well you have no idea how much I miss you... And I hope you know it does hurt... And sometimes, it just hurts even worse... It is really very unsettling... And there's so much uncertainty... I don't even know when you're going to call... Every time I want to call you and tell you something, I can't... I've got to wait for your call before I can do that... It's really very very frustrating... It's SO NOT like last time when I could call you... And even when you're busy, you'd still answer and tell me that you'll call me back... I hardly get any emails from you too... It'd be nice if you could just drop me an email telling me about what's up with you so far... I know it's easier to call... But there's always a time limit... There really is NO PROPER conversation... We just can't seem to have anymore heart to heart talks... All those idiots at the psych unit can say its not easy maintaining a long-d relationship and they can tell you what to do on paper... But have they ever been in it? Obviously not! It can be plainly seen from the fact that what ever they write has no emotion and empathy at all... They only know what goes on on paper... But when it comes to the real thing, they know jack shit! So that is really just bullshit! Let's see what they'd do when they are the ones who has to go through this SHIT! Haiz...
I've had enough of this rubbish... Will someone just do something about this screwed up system? Some scholar who is street smart? We don't need Frankensteins to lead us... We need HUMANS!!! People who have both brains and heart... Paper talk is NOT enough! That's the problem with our system... There is absolutely no heart at all!
Oh well... I've got to go... My tummy's killing me... Got to find some medication or some oil to ease the pain... So good night... Sleep tight... And I love you baby... Even though I'm still damn pissed at you going... I miss you lots!
Anyway, went straight to work... Got in at about 1030hrs or so... So anyway, didn't do much in the morning except prepare an invoice an a letter and a bit of filing for the new stock that's coming in... Wrote checks out too... So ya... Nothing much really... After all that was done, I went surfing the net for info for our UK trip next march... I'm thinking of maybe staying for about 9days 8nights... Then hopefully we can catch the Chelsea home game... That would be really fun 'cause you would hardly get the chance to watch a premier league game at the stadium itself... See if the travel agents can work out a good and cheap free and easy package... Sigh... Must save even more!!!! Anyway after that, Colin can back with my lunch... Had to stay in 'cause we were expecting some dude to come in to drop off a cheque... So ya... Oh well... But anyway, after lunch (which was about 1530hrs or so) I didn't do much (so, quite obviously, I was thinking of you practically the whole day)... Just a bit of filing and double checking the records... So ya... So did that till about 1900hrs when we left the office...
Before going home, we dropped off some mooncakes at a client down the road... Then after that, Colin sent me to my music teacher's place... Didn't do much there either... Did a lot of theory... 'Cause my exam is coming... On the 3rd of November... So ya... Not prepared at all... Sigh... Oh well... Anyway, after that, my music teacher sent me home... Reached home at about 2230hrs... Then went to wash up... And just after I had placed my towel back on the rack, you called... So zhun...
Well, we spoke for about 15minutes... Well you have no idea how much I miss you... And I hope you know it does hurt... And sometimes, it just hurts even worse... It is really very unsettling... And there's so much uncertainty... I don't even know when you're going to call... Every time I want to call you and tell you something, I can't... I've got to wait for your call before I can do that... It's really very very frustrating... It's SO NOT like last time when I could call you... And even when you're busy, you'd still answer and tell me that you'll call me back... I hardly get any emails from you too... It'd be nice if you could just drop me an email telling me about what's up with you so far... I know it's easier to call... But there's always a time limit... There really is NO PROPER conversation... We just can't seem to have anymore heart to heart talks... All those idiots at the psych unit can say its not easy maintaining a long-d relationship and they can tell you what to do on paper... But have they ever been in it? Obviously not! It can be plainly seen from the fact that what ever they write has no emotion and empathy at all... They only know what goes on on paper... But when it comes to the real thing, they know jack shit! So that is really just bullshit! Let's see what they'd do when they are the ones who has to go through this SHIT! Haiz...
I've had enough of this rubbish... Will someone just do something about this screwed up system? Some scholar who is street smart? We don't need Frankensteins to lead us... We need HUMANS!!! People who have both brains and heart... Paper talk is NOT enough! That's the problem with our system... There is absolutely no heart at all!
Oh well... I've got to go... My tummy's killing me... Got to find some medication or some oil to ease the pain... So good night... Sleep tight... And I love you baby... Even though I'm still damn pissed at you going... I miss you lots!
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