Day 3 of OBO... Pain...

I can't deal with this anymore... I'm feeling shit... I just wanna rid myself of all this pain... I wake up every morning checking my phone for your call only to see nothing... I start to worry and tears start to well up in my eyes... I can't eat... Everything that goes in comes out not too long after... When I'm at work, I just can't do anything at all... I can't concentrate, I can't do what I need to do properly... I've lost momentum... I've lost all meaning in life... I can't go on... Sometimes I just feel like banging my head against the wall hoping that all this is just a bad dream... Or just OD-ing on some drug or maybe just cut myself to relieve the pain... ... Why did you have to leave me at such a crucial time, when i'm starting a new chapter in my life? Why aren't you here for me?