Day 4 of OBO... Confusion...

It's now 1647hrs (GMT +8)... You're 2hrs behind... Well... Things are getting a bit better... But I still hurt everytime I think about you... Appetite's not really getting better... I dunno if I'm falling sick... Or there's something else growing inside of me... I'm sitting in the office alone now... Just finished part of the accounts... A bit more challenging... But still not challenging enough... Now I guess you'd probably know why I find office work a bore... Although I won't be able to run from it for long... I've got so much free time... Even though I'm supposed to be doing work... I guess cause this is mainly an admin job... So there's not much thinking to be done... Anyway, my results are out... But I haven't received anything... Sigh... I hate to wait... Everytime I have to wait, I start worrying... My head tells me one thing... But my heart hurts more than anything else... The pain always takes over any form of logic that forms in my head... I just don't know how to get out of it... Maybe it's not meant to get out... I don't know... I don't know if I should be happy or worried or whatever else... Right now, it feels like you're here because I get to talk to you over the phone (although you can't log on to the internet and check your mail and read my blog)... But at the same time, my head just keeps telling me that you're somewhere out in the vast ocean, surrounded only by water, doing some drill or firing your asses off like bullets just drop down from the sky like rain... It really hurts when I think about it... Maybe because I'll never be able to stop loving you... And I guess these are the kinds of sacrifices if we really love someone... Is it worth it? Well, anything done for you is worth it (that excludes anything stupid/illegal things)... SIGH... If only you were home... haiz...